An Accidental Author

8th May 2023

A bubbly, chirpy girl, whose life was simple and sorted; Education, job, and earn. Enjoying the little things in life and making the most of what I have got! But life does not always offer you what you dream of! And hence came my twist!
It was around the same time in 2015, I was a full-time working woman. I was about to deliver my son in May. Being a first-time mum, I had no idea how life flips after the arrival of little ones. I had not planned my post-partum, nobody told me to!
So as per the formal procedure, I was preparing myself to join back to work after the maternity break. But with the travel distance, and no availability of part-time jobs, I could not afford to be a full-timer with an infant because of the basic need of feeding. The journey of convincing myself to leave my dream job was not easy. I had my share of struggles making peace with the situation then. I kept looking for work-from-home opportunities, part-time as well as freelancing options but nothing seemed to have worked in my favor. I used to be irritated, frustrated, and grumpy all the time for no reason! It was tough to kill my time alone as the infant only kept sleeping all the time. I used to feel like the whole world is moving ahead and I still as if someone did me "STATUE"! The fact that I would always do and know a little less than anyone else started deteriorating my confidence. I thought nobody will understand my situation, so I did not reach to vent out or share with anyone. Every morning I only woke up with the hope that today I will take a small step in eradicating all the negative thoughts, sad feelings, and passive attitudes towards life and myself!




One day, I penned down my thoughts and started sharing them on social media. That was the turning point of my life I would say! Writing did not stop from then. Eliminating every other plan and shortlisting writing was not a major game changer until I started getting a mixed response for my writing. The good ones were so motivating that they used to fuel my night and I used to keep writing for the whole night! The negative ones were so negative that I used to feel disappointed and discouraged. The only thing that was giving me pleasure and getting me appreciation after a long time was not being accepted, did not leave me with a good feeling!
"What is the use of writing?"
"Who reads books these days?"
"It will not bring you money? How will you manage your finances then?"
"What is the use of your engineering degree then?"
Being asked all of these and much more, I still chose writing and I will, given any day!
When you swim against the tide, you ought to be slower than others. But that's the joy we gain after following our passion. Because some journeys are not about what and how others will feel, it is a personal process and an evolution!